You and Me

Ayoko na! :(
Suko na tagala ako :(

Ang dami naring nangyari kahit malayo tayo sa isa’t-isa, kahit after a year palang. Maraming bagay narin na hindi ko nalagay sa blog na to. Most of it are on my phone, which I lost just last week Thursday. Nawala ko sa bus. Kind of nagsisisi na hindi ko nalagay ang mga nakasulat dun sa blog na to pero OK lng yun. Siguro my purpose din kung bakit ganun ang nagyari. Isa pa, humiling ako once na sana mawala nlng ang phone ko. Yu na rin siguro yun, binigay na ni God. 

KL, di ko na alam kung ano ang feelings ko para sa’yo. Kung meron pa ba or wala na, o baka nanghihinayang lang ako? Ikaw kasi ang unang lalaking nag patibok ng puso ko nang ganito. Although mabilis lng, ikaw ang nag paramdam sakin na meron din plng fairy tale stories sa totoong buhay kahit hindi mo ito madalas makita. Happy ako kahit papaano. Kahit isang araw lng tayong nagkita ulit. Eventhough it was not really a one full day of being together, it was worth it. 
Sorry ha. Mahal kita pero parang nawawala na e… :’((
Hindi ko na alam kong ano ang gagawin ko. Gusto ko nang mg move on sa life ko, at kasama dun ay yung iwan ka. My time with you has passed… I decided not to bring you to my present anymore. Ang hirap kasi. Di ko alam kong worthy ka pa ba o hindi na… Dati siguro masasabi ko pang oo… ngayon… parang hindi na. 

After ng one and only meeting natin… texting kahit long distance na. Syempre masaya ang feeling… Hindi nga mgkasama sa isang lugar pero araw-araw natetext tayo pero after that just suddenly… nawalan tayo ng connection for one month tapos suddenly you stopped sending me sweet and love quotes. Every time mg text tayo hindi na matagalan. Hindi na everyday, siguro mga once 1-2 times a week nlng tpus naging 3 times in a month?… tapos nging kong kailan mo nlng feel mgtext sakin. Palagi kanang ngsasabi na mauuna kng matulog kasi antok kana… basta ang dami ring nangyari. Sinasabi mong importante ako sayo pero di mo nmn ipinapakita. And then one day nalaman ko nlng na my girlfriend kna. Di mo mn lng ako sinabihan, kahit sinabi mong ipapaalam mo kong meron na. Kung hindi ako gumawa ng move na ipaalam sa’yo sa alam ko na siguro dun plng hindi na tayo mg uusap. Dun na siguro matatapos ang lahat. 

Ang daming nangyari within that year… Meron din akong mga sinabi sayo na mga sweet words. Alom ko sinabi ko once na ayo kong mawala ka sakin dahil mahalaga ka. Sorry… it’s just that people change. There are a lot of factors of what can change a person and one of those things is how you treat them. How you care for them and how you show it. As people change, hearts move on too.
Let’s end it…
Gusto ko nang taposin to. Ayoko na kasi ramdam ko na na wala kanang feelings para sakin. Di mo na kailangang taguin. Tanggap ko na na mahal mo na si Monique. Hindi ko na kailangang itanong yun, at marinig ang boses mo na mahal mo na s’ya. Tama na ‘tong pagiging mabait mo. Di mo na kialangang gawin yun. 
KL, ayo ko na kasi ayoko ng mafeel na extra lng ako. Na pupuntahan mo kong mawawala s’ya. Tama na. Let’s move on and carry on with out life separately. Take good care of yourself. God luck and God bless :))



Alam ko it might be a little feeling kong anong nakalagay dito… marami pa siguro akong na miss out. Things that I want to say but I forgot. Pero sana ok na to… Gusto ko lng ipaalam na talagang gusto ko ng matapos to. 

Feelings are things that you have no control over. So, you can’t control who you fall for. When you fall for someone you feel every single emotion. You feel total happiness, sadness, excitement, disappointment, love, hate, heartbreak and so much more. When you fall in love you have to ask yourself, ”is this person worthy?” Worth all the emotion. Worth the risk of heartbreak. Worth everything.

I thought the story have already ended. When I was so sure that you are not interested in me any more, there you go walking towards me smiling and telling me that you are still there and it’s not over yet. This is like a teenage love, young love, whatever you call it. You always come back when I thought I have already lost you. This might be just an infatuation but thank you for making me feel this way. You always give me joy.